Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Paralysis by Analysis

Paralysis by Analysis is a humoristic phrase used to indicate the situation wherein no decision at all can be made due to devoting disproportionate effort to the analysis phase of a decision.

It is quite simple to hit a brick wall when trying to make difficult decisions. I have found that, while trying to overcome major obstacles in my life, I have been at a complete standstill with the goals and achievements I had always imagined I could and would attain.

It is so easy to get muddled with details and the lesser important things in life. Somehow the 'how you are doing' becomes more important than the 'what you are doing'. You completely lose sight of your personal goals just to get through what seems like a crisis.

I grew up putting out fires. Everything was one emergency after another. Nothing was ever, and I mean EVER, premeditated or planned for. It was always playing a game of catch up and taking care of the immediate needs rather then trying to have foresight for the future. Now, at 25, I am trying to break the pattern. I have been trying so hard to stabilize, settle and alleviate all the damage, that I have found myself right back in square one, no where. I have made no real progress and I haven't had much, if any, immediate personal crisis to stand in my way.

Years ago in college while deciding on what major to choose and direction I should go in, I drew a picture in my head of what my future would look like. Only recently, while focusing on something else (something that really shouldn't have been my focus), I thought of that picture again. And guess what, I didn't fit anymore. Obviously its not too late and 'better late then never' but it was a swift kick in the butt for me. Lately I had been re-prioritizing things anyway to achieve some of those immediate things, those minor fires to be put out, and this just reinforces the need for that.

Prioritize, bite the bullet and mobilize yourself...

I also realized something else. I am beginning to really enjoy my life. Perhaps now was the best time for me to remind myself of what I want for MYSELF. No time like the present! Get paid tomorrow or get paid today...:)

Thanks Jenn for helping me see my plateau...it's time to start climbing again isn't it? :)
Happy Wednesday!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Ain't It Funny How Time Slips Away...

Things have been really busy lately but good. It's really amazing how you can go from watching the clock, just waiting for the time to pass, to wondering where time goes??

I know a few people who are quite literally counting down the minutes, hours, days, weeks and really if you asked me even just a month ago I'd be right there with them. But suddenly things are in fast forward for me...the summer nights are all washing away with the rain and there really just aren't enough hours in the day!

Here is one of my all time favorite Dave songs...whenever I listen to it, it really puts things into perspective for me. :) Maybe it will for you too! I've included the link for the youtube video so you can listen to it, as well as lyrics.

Don't burn the day...

Pig- Dave Matthews Band- Before These Crowded Streets album

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbpvDIxeeZM

Isnt it strange
How we move our lives for another day
Like skipping a beat
What if a great wave should
Wash us all away
Just thinking out loud
Dont mean to dwell on this dying thing
But looking at blood
Its alive right now
Deep and sweet within
Pouring through our veins
Intoxicate moving wine to tears
Drinking it deep
Then an evening spent dancing
Its you and me
This love will open our world
From the dark side you can see a glow
Of something bright
Theres much more than we see here
Dont burn the day away

Is this not enough
The blessed sip of life
Is it not enough
Staring down at the ground
Oh then complain and pray
More from above
Greedy little pig
Stop just watch your world trickle away
Oh its your problem now
Itll all be dead and gone in
A few short years
Just love will open our eyes
Just love will put the hope back in our minds
Much more than we could ever know
Dont burn the day away

Come sister
My brother
Shake up your bones shake up your feet
Im saying open up
And let the rain come pouring in
Wash out this tired notion
That the best is yet to come
But while youre dancing on the ground
Dont think of when youre gone
Love! love! - what more is there?
We need the light of love in here
Dont beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But thats ok
Just look for love in it
Dont burn the day away

Look
Here are we
On this starry night staring into space
And I must say
I feel as small as dust
Lying down here
What point could there be troubling
Head down wondering what will
Become of me
Why concern we cannot see
But no reason to abandon it
Time is short but that's all right
Maybe Ill go out in the middle of the night
Take your hands from your eyes, my love
Everything must come to an end sometime
Dont burn the day away

Come sister
My brother
Shake up your bones shake up your feet
Im saying open up
And let the rain come flooding in
Wash out this tired notion
That the best is yet to come
But while youre dancing on the ground
Dont think of when youre gone
Love! love! - what more is there?
We need the light of love in here
Dont beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But thats ok